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Incredibly drunk!
Is it just me? when i get drunk here, like insanely drunk like i am now. I tend to think alot more about LOS? and about how i miss everything about LOS? I would sit there in MTB with my girl having a blast of fun, and then head off to Safari for some after party and dancing all night, but sheesh whats wrong!
I met this nice girl today back here in Sweden, and now when i think about it, she was actually realy nice. The exact type of girl i would go with before i went to LOS. But now i have no interest! Its stupid and totaly redicilous that i would say "Sorry im not interested" to a beautiful girl just because she's not Thai. Something is seriously screwed with me, i need to find my way back to reality and that is right now or i am gonna be a lunatic before i hit 25.
Im losing it here, but WHY?! I know i know, i met this 1 girl in LOS and most likely she's not sitting around waiting for me untill i get back in April, most likely she's doing whatever she can to find a new guy to take care of her and provide for her and her family with the money she needs. So why does it feel so wrong for me to go with another girl? I realy wanted to go with this girl today, atleast i think so, she was realy nice, great looking and totaly gorgeous but i just couldnt, even tho she was the top of the line.
LOS screws things up, and the best thing for me would probably be to never go back again, but we all know thats not gonna happend.
What i need to know is, what is so god damn special with these thai girls?
No white girl has ever made me so weak in such a short time as this thai girl did, Am i madly in love with her, or am i madly in love with Thai girls in general? Or am i just madly in love with Thailand?
Whatever it is, it's driving me crazy!
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