Hi Geespot.
Nobody wants to die early. Nobody wants to get HIV and then AIDS, but if you want the tune played, you gotta pay the piper.
Why do I hire a motorbike and do 175mph on the roads without leathers or helmet? Am I a complete numpty? Maybe
but I am PREPARED FOR THE CONSEQUENCES FOR WHAT I DO.
Same with shagging with no rubbers. I would rather not do it than wear a rubber. You also say 'I couldnt live with myself for infecting anyone else' but THEY are in the position that YOU are in. They have a choice.
I have had 4 HIV tests now. All negative. I dont worry one bit through the 13 weeks period, or the week for the test results.
Worry about the important things in life such as "Whats for tea tonight?" or "I wonder if my football team will win on Saturday".
The rest of it always sorts itself out in the end.
One thing I NEVER do is think "I wonder what would have happened if only I had of done ..... "
Its completely pointless. When u make a decision, you make it because it is the BEST ONE AT THAT TIME.
Never regret the things you have done, only the things you havent done.
If it worries you, cover yourself up, or stretch yourself to 'raw' blow jobs.
Im sure you will have a life changing experience whatever you decide to do - especially if you end up in bed with a bloke with tits
