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exactly guys, this is what i mean, take the next example for instance.....
she works 20 mins from her apartment in phuket... and gets home at 530pm every night, give or take..... so one night when i was there, she was not home by 6, so i rang, and it just rang and rang finally going to answer phone, then i rang again, and again,and again. finally getting a txt back, saying work late home soon. so i rang again and she answerd it, saying she be late because shes work late. I jumped on my bike and went to see if she was at work. and sure enough she was there. So her explanation later for not answering the phone was she was busy working. This to me is strange as id pick up first time and say " busy darling".
she has got her own mobile phone, but i asked if i could have her moms number as its only 2p per min landline to landline. and she didnt hesitate in giving it to me. She doesnt live with her mom as her mom lives in Hua Hin and she lives in phuket. Everytime i ring her at her moms she is there. she says she is telling her mom about me. Nice things she says ( i bet .)
I think she has had a hard childhood maybe deprived of love and certainly affection, as she says she loves her mom dearly but when we went up to meet her, there was a distinct lack of affection. not one kiss from mother to daughter or vice versa, during our whole stay,even when leaving, nothing. So maybe she not even realize the affect her cold behavour has on people, or maybe just doesnt care.
i know i find myself sometimes trying to make excuses for her behavour, another reason she may find relationships hard is because shes been on her own for 30 years. and finds having to consider other people hard ( stuck in her ways maybe ) never had a guy living with her at all. last bf she had was farang and she saw him at weekends, and the one before was her first boss. ( hmmmmm) thats all she has had ( so she says, but i have no reason to misbelieve her )
but she sure does my head in. if shes playing a game and after money, why take me to meet her family. and why tell her family she comeing to uk for holiday.because if we split it wont look good on her will it, or do they accept splitting up like westerners do. she wants me to ring her moms several times a day, maybe im a trophy, to show off to her family as none of her sisters have ever had boyfriends, and they all live at home with mom except my gf. She really is a very intellegent girl, she knows what she wants and knows how to get it,
i remember once when i was there i was pissed off with her, so on phone with her i said i was going to patong, ( 2.45 pm) for a beer or 8, within 20 mins she was back at apartment, just dropped everything at work and left,she certainly didnt want me going to patong on my own. we sorted it out and all was well, but if she not care about me, why rush back. hmmmmmmm
So i still dont know whats going on, she says she loves me, so i guess i better just sit tight and ride it out. and hope there is a lifeboat somewhere near to come and rescue me WHEN i need it. Im so in love with her it has to lead to heartbreak somewhere down the line.Im watching what i offer her and avoiding saying she can have money, funny, but when i was leaving last time i gave her 5000 baht at airport and said, get something for yourself, hmmm well, she paid the rent for the apartment next day, got some shopping and fuel for car. hmmmmmm. and even told me what she did. so no attemp to hide it.
i kinda wish id never met her, but a bit late now. if she was working the bars and i knew, it would be so much easier for me to know what to do. maybe a PI will sort it out for me hahaha.
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