Nice post Jaybee,
I dont think you made much of a mistake though , if it wasnt your friend it would have been somebody else with her.
The problem with the los experience as we all know is simply the fact that know matter how much we say inside our heads 'these girls are prostitutes - dont get involved' , it never seems to work out that way.
We always meet that 'special one' who really does seem to like us for who & what we are , Ive been there too and can relate to everybody here who has had that 'sick feeling in the gut' knowing that little gem you grew close to in a short time is now off with another and calling him tilac.
2 of my long term girls in particular felt to me almost like the customer/bg barrier wasnt there at all when really it is , we must never forget we pay them now matter how much we deny it.
I have sometimes dont the worst thing by paying them an amount at the end rather than daily , this is bad because you start to convince yourself shes likes you for you and not your money.
The main problem for all of us is that many bg's really are true gems , they are nothing like the western concept of prostitute at all and it does feel like a real g/f.
My last tour , i think i really started to get the hang of distancing my emotions as i found a sweet little tilac who had a long term b/f arleady , he is sending her money every month & calling her every day ...not me.
This helped me a lot to stop myself from falling for her the way i have with others in the past, although like always it got confusing as she started telling me she liked me more than him & was not as sure about him now as before , all this kind of stuff can easily ''pull at a mans heartstrings'' but i kept true to advice given to me by Dirty mike and others like Bafana , i gave her the daily rate & on a daily basis , i only give email so i get no problems via phone calls either , this way is much better but i take their numbers if i feel like chatting with them.
The dilenma for me right now is that the last tilac wants to see me again and as usual 'misses me too much' , i have only called her 3 times since april , the last being on my birthday in july.
I would like to see her again because i know ive found one that dont fcuk me around as is happy with the standard baht without giving me demands for extra money + jewellery + shopping and so on.
I think its fair to say most guys here like me ARE single and feel lonely when we return , its not so hard for those with wives because they are lucky in that they can switch off easy.
I strongly feel there is only 1 solution , sadly its not that easy to get work in los and join the expat ranks but its what you gotta do if you want something more than holiday sex.
I feel for Jonny & knew he would be feeling a little down on return to Ireland simply because after reading his 'on tour reports' it was easy to see he had found a girl on many qualities & not just some who gives good boom=boom
Just want to say to everyone who has been through that you are not alone but you gotta battle in your mind and learn to switch off , i know its easier said than done but you just got to for your own sakes
Good luck to everyone & i hope we all find the true happiness we crave
