Still gotta be cynical
Hi, new to this board, and I've been browsing for a few days so I thought I'd share something from my recent trip to LOS cuz I'm interested in what you guys think...
2 weeks ago I spent 10 days in Pattaya with a BG. It was pretty awesome, needless to say, but what gets me is that on our last night together as we were lying in bed, with her head on my chest she was crying. She cried for like half an hour. "Jon why you not stay with me..." "I like you Jon" "I
'appy with you". Even I got a bit teary eyed, I couldn't help it.
Since she was a BG I tried to keep my emotions at bay and stay as detached as possible, but since she DID cry should I take her more sincerely? Or does the crying just tend to happen if you're a decent enough guy? I mean, we had fun together, and I was nice to her, but our conversations were never that deep or anything due to the language barrier...she still calls me every day though...and SMS "I have only you in my heart", and yesterday she said she loves me now...I can't honestly reciprocate though, I said maybe after a long time. I do appreciate her honesty as she always tells me when she goes with other men (which is something I knew from the start I'd be getting myself into) and sometimes when she doesn't because she "doesn't like him" etc.. She also keeps repeating that she only does the job for money, and although she doesn't really want to have sex with them she has to to get paid; she says she'd rather be with me. She has also said more than once she doesn't have any other BFs...and during my 10 days with her she'd always show me who was calling her when her phone rang (usually her mom or a friend), and I was with her almost every second of every day.
Wasn't expecting this, but of course I still gotta be cynical, since I was only with her for 10 days and she is a BG after all. I find its not really that hard as long as I try to think of her more as a platonic friend right now. Probably should have just butterflied it...maybe I'm too nice. She was pretty cool though--same age as me (20), no kids, good sense of humor. I'll probably see her again next trip. BTW I gave her 10,000 baht for the 10 days I was with her and nothing since.
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