Hi Senor,
Nice post. A few random thoughts!
1) Each of us is a soul. And each has a heart. Everything else is an illusion, looks, age, money, gender, race, nationality. In the middle of the night, when the lights are out and two people lie together, sleep together, dream together, then you know the truth. Sex is only an expression of what we feel. It is the desire to become one with another for fleeting moments to the small extent which we can as human beings. It is showing the other person how you feel. It is an expression of feelings, and it is not the sex that is important but the feelings. And I believe that is true whether it is for two people who are in love or for two people who are just sharing a few hours of thier lives. why not make it the best it can be in either case.
But when you lie with the other person in the dark, if your hearts are open, then all the other superficial bullshit melts away, and the two souls are left to bare their hearts to one another or to hide their hearts from one another, if that is their choice.
If you feel warm feelings for another, then you should show it, and maybe sometimes it even turns to love. If you think the other person is a cheap wh*re and have no respect for her, then that is the feeling that you show her, and that will color the moments spent together.
We are all afraid to let go of our feelings because we have been burned in the past, all of us. And there is always the risk that we will be burned again, whether for money, or pride, or heartaches. And it is the same risk for a farang as it is for a BG, in the respect that we all risk disappoinment and loss of one kind or another.
So we must not be naive. But we ought not be cowards, either!
You are a brave man, Senor, and I commend you for it!
2) You look hellagood for a man your age. Look around! You are in top condition from what I can see and that is something to be proud of. If some of these young studs could see into the future of what they will look like when they are older, they would not be so quick to mouth off to their seniors!
3) Have a blast with your lady in LOS! And I know that I don't need to tell you every day is precious. And that is why in the end you have everything to gain and relatively little to lose.
Enough "mindless chatter!"
JayBee
