[cadia]

I dont; want to make this site as my private place for my bad story of love. So sorry all memberboards here about my story again since i don;t know what i can do to this man - magnusvv - since he put my pictures online with his *****.

So i am very angry and hurt because my ex bf cheated on me, didn;t respect me and until today, he again hurts me and tells me: no, it isn;t purposely. That's why i am posting like this - like a crazy person because i don;t know what i can do to this man so that he could show me a little bit respect. A good man had changed completely once he got his foot in thailand.

In the second week of Nov, I was at home, bought phone cards from here and sent him with a hope he would call me since he told me that internet and phone cards were so damn expensive in thailand - and he is a cheapy charlie. He called me sometimes and told me he couldn;t wait to come back and getting married. And the fact was that he took prostitutes for fun there and told me - no, that's not his type of love.

While staying at Patong, Phuket, he took a ***** name Jip.. took the Maithai bar and showed up there as i was at home and watched him. And it is ironical that now his family think that i was crazy jealous because i watched him that night - they don;t think that their son hurted me so badly and it's my fault to do that. At the night i watched the webcam, some memberboards gave me the phone number of his hotel so i could call him. And I did. I asked him not to take that girl, and he told me he didn;t take any girl. Some days later, when i had already known that he spent all his time in Patong with that *****, he wrote me an email and told me that he stayed with that ***** that night.. and told me don;t fall apart here.

And he spent all his time in Thailand with that prostitute in all places that he had told me he would want to be with me.

When he came back here, he even called that ***** in front of me and told her how much he missed her, how much he loved her when i was crying.. About his family, no one talked to me nor helped me. His mother cried a little bit, and then she immediately asked her son what she could do if they all travel to thailand.. when i was still crying because of hurt.

And today, two months later.. I had thought that all my hurt had gone away.. but he posted all pictures of me with his ***** online.. and that hurts to think that all i had done was to treat that family as good as i could, and they paid me back with hurt and more hurt.. I am not a *****, i am not a prostitute.. and i always good.. so why there are some people just try to hurt me more??

I really don't know what to think.. i know i am hurting myself and i am putting myself down when i post this.