[Heywood]

I too have been where you are, actually I have been here 2 times in my life, I was younger than yourself, I was 21 or so when my first was born we were not married until 1 year after. our second child was born 6 years later.

I have for the past 7+ years raised the two children by myself due to the mothers death, the other woman aborted the child so I have a pretty good idea of what this is like and what the meaning of this can be.

You are sitting at a crossroad in life that will determain a great deal as to what becomes of you, what you will or will not be able to acomplish so choose wisely. As with most crossroads in life, make a choice but be sure it is one that you can live with, each of us has choices that must be made without the convience of knowing the outcome, it is a part of life.

Sorry but life has its ugly moments, at times I wonder how I got through some of it alive, over the years I have come full circle and as of right now feel like I have just started to live my life in the way that I want...but then no one ever told me it was going to be easy.

Best of luck to you, whatever you choose I hope that you will find peace with the decsion that you make.